Hope ya know, We had a Hard Time

*I wrote this over a month ago, but just having it post now...whoops :)

I've been thinking about the baby we lost a lot lately... I've been missing that baby so badly. Maybe it's the pregnancy hormones or just a mama's love, but I've been having a hard time. I'm so extremely grateful for the chance to have another baby, but it's been so hard. I keep having dreams that I miscarry again, and it's been hard to get excited, and comfortable about the new baby, because I don't want to set myself up for another devastating loss...I feel so guilty because I was over the moon about the baby that we lost, and I'm just so cautious and paranoid about this one. BUT I've been feeling the baby move more, and I'm loving it!! :) Alax even got to feel a little kick too :) I figure that I should just be happy and stop worrying so much, and just enjoy every moment. It's hard, but I'm working on it :) We find out what we're having in a couple weeks, and I can't WAIT!!! At first I thought it might be a boy, but now I'm kinda feeling like it's a girl. We'll see!

I was looking at random videos on YouTube and saw this video on the sidebar. I've watched it many times, but it really hit me today. I sobbed as I watched it, and wondered to myself how often I've cried to my Father in Heaven lately, "Hope ya know, I'm having a hard time". I hope that we can all be kinder to each other. Give a smile to someone we walk by in the store, hold a door open for someone, or volunteer our time and talents to helping others around us, because I can guarantee everyone we meet is having a hard time with something. Call it a late new years resolution, but I hope to serve others more this year. 

I'm so thankful for the Atonement of Jesus Christ. What a wonderful gift. I'm grateful that when we reach out to the heavens and say "Hope ya know, I'm having a hard time" He does know. What a blessing. Enjoy this video, and watch it often.